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[Dec. 16th, 2005|09:52 am] |
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wheeee!!!!!! |
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[Nov. 13th, 2005|03:36 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fuck off | ] |
so here i am sitting in jessis basement while the one i
really like is next to me palying the drum set. See i finally like
someone toehr than Chris but does it go anywher? no.. so now.. im
lonely-er than uaul.. i mean i thought i might have a chance with
him... but i guess not i dont blame hiim.. im not that much of a catch
but still it sucks to have him as such a good friend and no more than
that. I justwish he wouldnt worry too much about ruining our friendship
and giving me a chance as a girlfriend. Honestly.. to be with him i am
willing to risk our friendship.. althought i dont know what would
happen if i lost him as a friend. Hes always there for me even if he
sucks at advice sometrimers and fucks it up wors.e I jsut wish i knew
what to do.. and hes the one i go to when i need help but now who do i
go to? i have no idea. I mean jessi is there but sometimes i think she
gets sick of my and my problems.
wow.. i just realized that im a loer. ive always known it before.. but
man.. this makes me a BIG loser.....okay well.. im going to go hug the
one i like.. and lay on him and fall asleep....
" Good night good night.. parting is such sweet sorrow.. that we shall goodbye.. till it be morrow. "
- Nicol3
ps. if ever i am to love again...someone snap me out of it
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| woot? |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|08:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | numb | ] |
| [ | music |
| | eh | ] |
All this shit going on at my house might be over on Wed. Hoo-hah! i get the fuck out of here.. but im goin to miss alot of people.....sometimes i wonder if its worth it |
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| sigh-ness |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|07:23 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | none. . . | ] |
You want to stop your love for him
To make all the pain he caused go away
But nothing seems to happen
When you see him everyday
Youve told him how you feel
He feels the same way too
But you know hes with her
Not even thinking about you
You cry your self to sleep
Wishing he was right there
Tears turning red
You feel life is no longer fair
You write about him constantly
Your poems could fill up books
When you give them to him to read
He probably glances and wont even look
People wonder why
You still love him so strong
You always respond with
" i promised him love that lasts all life long "
You have bite marks on your tongue
From holding back from what you want to say
Deep down in your heart youre hoping
That he will look your way
Hes perfect in your eye
Even if he cant see
Even though hes not with you
To you he means EVERYTHING
Ever word you speak is amazing
Makes you smile each and every time
and still this constantly in your head;
" i wish he could once again be mine "
And so once again you go home
Another lonely soul
You know with out him
Your heart will never again be full
©nicole 2005 |
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| November 5th, 2005.. horaay. |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|03:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Good Charlotte- Hold On | ] |
I never meant to be so cold.
That song is effing amazing. seriosuly; its one of the best songs ive ever heard.
And somehow i can relate to almost all the fucking songs on my WMP thing. What the hell is wrong with me? honestly. i have no idea why the fuck i sit around being depressed about my life. I know i havt alot of shit to go through..but theres people out there who have nothing.. no money.. no food and still go home and get te shit hit out of them. I make myself sick
Im starting to really hate school. I know i hated it before.. but its getting worse. Grrrr im fucking failing Urig.. i hate that class. hes a good teacher i guess btu im so bad at history
Plus.. i think im starting to only see Kyle as a friend.. it reminds me of " let me go " by 3 doors down. for those who dont know - " you love me but you dont know who i am so let me go ". Yup once again back to the i realte to all these songs. And now Hold on is playing.. and frankly. it couldnt of picked a better time.
Well thats me! eh.. no one reads this anyway so horray for writing to yourself. |
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